Greetings! I am filling in for Wendy this Monday, and as it is my birthday, I thought I would use quotes about gifts. Not just the tangible, wrapped in fancy paper with ribbon and bow. But the intangible, the ephemeral, the ethereal gifts we can give ourselves every day.
“This life is your gift to yourself…Open it!” (anon)
“The greatest gift you can give yourself is a little bit of your own attention.” (Anthony J. D’Angelo)
“Every day, once a day, give yourself a present. Don’t plan it. Don’t wait for it. Just let it happen.” (Agent Dale Cooper, Twin Peaks)
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I am so touched by the support and compassion I have received after posting about how ill I’ve been feeling recently. Your comments truly helped my mental health. I feel so loved.
I’m happy to say I am feeling better. I just took my last steroid. (If I can help it, it will be my last steroid EVER!) I’m still having some side effects, but the worst seems to have passed. The steroids not only affected me physically, they affected me mentally. A few days ago, I was convinced I was going to die. Phew, thank goodness that’s gone now!
My back is a bit better too. It’s still tight, but I’m having much fewer spasms. I even started some of my physical therapy exercises today. Crossing fingers all of this will get my back better.
I’m very excited that I’ve been able to knit! (I do loom knitting) It’s just that I have projects I really want to finish before Christmas. 🙂 Heck, I’m making a scarf for me, I’d really like to have before it gets cold. hahaha
Again, thank you all for you love and support. I am forever grateful.
Things haven’t been perfect this week. I did have a night filled with cluster headaches. But I got through it, and since then I’ve been feeling, well, pretty darn good. Until I got this little virus, but I already wrote about that, and I’m grateful that it will run it’s course and I’ll be done with it! Plus I’m very Grateful that it really hasn’t been that bad, a couple of icky days, but that’s about it.
I am so very GRATEFUL that I found something that is helping me with my tummy issues! I found a book that addresses the food issues that I have, but I plan to write a whole post about this, it’s so exciting! And I think it could help others with dietary issues.
I am GRATEFUL:
that I have a new psychiatrist! She is so professional. I’ve only seen her once, but she took a very detailed patient history, discussed all my medications in detail, discussed my concerns, and our future plans. I was very impressed. After the last fiasco with my previous doctor, it is such a relief to find a doctor who is not only professional but enjoys her job.
that I have been on more regular sleep schedule. This is something I haven’t had for a very long time.
I am waking up with more energy. Of course, this is probably because I am on a more regular sleep schedule, but it sure is nice.
I’ve been able to go down stairs every day this week. Most people probably don’t know just how disabled I have been, but tackling the stairs have been a huge task for a long time. Most weeks I’ve been lucky if I’ve made it downstairs one or two days. So making it down stairs every day for a week, that is a great accomplishment!
I have gotten out of the house many times this week! Not only have I made it downstairs every day, but many days I’ve gone out. I went to the grocery store….a HUGE accomplishment! I went for a ride with the top off of the car! I went to the Thrift store and got a new pair of pants. I went and looked at glasses. (I have an eye doctor’s appointment tomorrow, and will need new glasses.) I even went out to eat, this is hard because of all the noise. I’m also proud I went out to eat and stayed true to my diet, I didn’t eat anything that would make my tummy unhappy.
I exercised a little this week….a very, very little…but I did something! Not only did I do a lot more in general, and you can call that a lot more exercise…I know my body is! I did a few yoga poses almost every morning. Just a few. I’m trying to learn to balance more with my eyes instead of relying on my ears so much. So I’m doing some of the standing yoga poses while focusing on a focal point. Maybe it will help. By going out an doing more I’m also working on increasing my stamina.
I didn’t let a virus ruin my week. I was having a really great week, then I caught a virus and suddenly I felt crappy. I thought, am I going to start feeling really bad again? Then I caught myself….Stop thinking like that. I can’t predict the future. And what has been happening has been great, but it doesn’t mean it will continue. I will live in this moment. and I’ll enjoy it. If it’s a bad moment, I know it’s a moment. It’s my moment. And it’s OK. (A note to Laurie at HibernationNow….Yes, I did over do it…You were right! so I’m very tired today…but it was worth it, yesterday I had a a very fun day!)
I realized that even having a virus I still don’t feel as bad as I have felt. No I don’t want to live in the past, but it was a bit of an eye opener when I realized I was lying here sick and I didn’t feel as bad as I have for a lot of the time this past year….heck the past couple of years.
My head hasn’t hurt much at all! As I mentioned above, I had a night of cluster headaches, but since then….my head has been so good to me. There’s a couple of reasons I think this may be, but I’m just grateful that it has happened! I’m sure I’ll have headaches in the future, but to have the relief I feel now….so GRATEFUL.
I made my lunch today all by myself. I cut up my own chicken today, and warmed up my own lunch. Because of my balance issues and sudden vertigo I haven’t trusted myself to use a knife in a long time, at least without supervision. Today I made my lunch with Stuart upstairs.
To hear my husband say, “It’s so nice to be able to do things with you.” Remembering to be in this moment…..
This week is not a full as last week, but I still have many GRATITUDES.
After weeks of waking up every night a 4am with a very severe pain in my head and neck last night I slept with a soft cervical collar on, it helped. I still woke up in pain, but I got a lot more sleep, and when I woke up the pain was much less severe. However, I did snore all night, and the collar does take some getting use to. But I am so VERY GRATEFUL for a soft cervical collar, and more sleep!
I’m grateful that I was able to make it out to TWO appointments this week two days in a row! First to the Pain Clinic and next to the Neuro-Opthomologist. That is a big accomplishment. I didn’t really think about it, I just knew I had to do it, but Stuart pointed out how proud he was of me. I don’t think of it as being proud of me, I get upset when I can’t do it, but I need to realize, this is wonderful! When we started to leave for the neuro-opthomologist appointment I felt like I was starting to have vertigo, but I couldn’t cancel this appointment, it took me over 3 months to get in to see this doctor! I was scared, but I took some medication, turned the air conditioner on me full blast, and made a go for it. It was a grueling day, filled with hours of tests. I’m grateful that everything turned out fine. No problems with my eyesight, except that I need new glasses!
I’m grateful that the bunnies have grown up enough to leave the nest. We are officially empty nesters! Stuart was a little sad. The first night he was very worried, he kept saying, “I hope they are alright.” Such a sweet foster bunny dad.
I’m grateful for my friends. I’ve lost many along the way over the past few years, things happen, life moves on. The friends who are still active in my life are the kind you have for a life time. My new friends are so precious, I hope you know how much you mean to me. My dear friends, I am so very grateful for each and every one of you.
I’m grateful for books. For the library, for my Kindle, for any way that I can get free books that I actually want to read! Recently I’ve been reading a lot more about my gut issues. I’m grateful that I think I found a book that is going to help me with my restrictive diet dealing with my fructose malabsorption. I’m reading about ways to handle chronic pain using Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction, I think this could also help me during a vertigo attack. I already use some of these techniques, and it does help quite a bit. I’m reading a lot about Buddhism, all about the different types and how they are different from one another. I’m reading about minimalism, trying to reduce things in my life. I’m reading about art and photography. I’m reading a mystery, some science fiction….. I read to relax, and I read to learn. I just love to read.
I’m grateful for this silly goat someone shared with me today that made me laugh and laugh….Stuart laughed at me blabbing with this goat. Blab, Blabb, Blablbelble…. I think he really laughed because I couldn’t hear myself and I was just going on and on blable, bable….hahaha
So my friends these are some of the things I’m grateful for this week.
Share with me, what are some of the things you are grateful for????
I’m fickle! The name Attitude of Gratitude isn’t going to stick. I didn’t like the attitude part. Just recognizing that we have things to be grateful for is the most we can strive for sometimes, so my weekly posts will simply be called GRATITUDES! (I realize this isn’t really a proper word, but I like it! It has a bit of an, shall I say, Attitude! ha! Feeling a big cheeky today aren’t I?) Now, on with the GRATITUDES!
I have so much to be grateful for this week!
Not to say that there haven’t been challenges, but this post is going to focus on the many things that I am so very GRATEFUL for!
Hubby is working!!! This week Stuart started a part-time contract position. It is a position that he is very excited about, doing something that he wants to do. The company is new, so it’s not full-time, yet, and we don’t know when it will be. There is more about this that I will tell later…..right now, I just want to say…..I am so grateful that my husband has a job, and it’s a job he is excited about.
My father’s tumor is GONE! My father was diagnosed with liver cancer this winter. He has been undergoing chemoembolization treatments. He went in for tests on Thursday, before setting up his final treatment, and there was no tumor to be found! He will need no further treatments. He does have to go back in a few months for an MRI just to be sure, but all looks great. I’m amazed at this treatment. Each treatment he has gone in, had the chemo delivered straight to the tumor, and has gone home the next day. He feels icky for a couple of days and then he’s fine. He had 3 treatments. He says he feels great, just old. : ) Also said, he wants to lose 10 pounds, and he’s thrilled he still has all his hair! How many 81-year-old men can say that? I’m so grateful my father’s cancer is gone.
Baby Bunnies Safe. Stuart was mowing the lawn this week and uncovered a nest of Baby Bunnies! He was so upset. He just fretted over these poor little things. He actually mowed right over them! They didn’t really move, acted like they didn’t really notice. He covered them with an upside down flower-pot. Then he asked me about it. He thinks since I grew up in the country I know everything about all woodland animals and plants. I know a little…like the fact that baby bunnies are called kittens, and they have their babies in a nest, but that’s about it. So off to the internet! He was afraid mama bunny was going to abandon babies. He found out that the mama only visits during the night a couple of times to feed the babies. It said to cover them with loose grass or straw, we had dried corn husk so he put that over them. It said if there was any sign that there was any digging around then she had been there and all was good. (He saw digging, and the second night, he even saw mama bunny, he was so relieved!) Since the ears are up, and eyes are open, these bunnies are about the go on their way all by themselves. I told Stuart he was a good Bunny Daddy. He said NO, he wasn’t their daddy. I said, Step Daddy….he looked, shook his head and said….Foster Dad. I liked that. Bunnies are safe, and the nest is just right outside our back door. Might be a good thing we don’t have a garden this year. (our back yard does back up to woods so these bunnies will have a perfect place to grow up.) I’m so grateful that the bunnies are safe, and that my husband has such a kind and compassionate heart.
I had a BATH complete with washing hair and shaving legs – this may sound like a little thing to many, but this is a VERY BIG DEAL FOR ME! I have a very hard time taking baths and showers. Showers are worse than baths for me. I have to stand in a shower, the only thing helping me stay stable is my feet and my hands on the walls. If my hands are on the walls how am I supposed to wash myself? So stability is not very good. Falling is very easy. Shower has equaled many disasters. (I have tried a shower chair, it was not a success.) I can only take a shower if Stuart is with me, unfortunately this is not nearly as much fun as it used to be! (darn) A bath is easier, but still a challenge. This week I did it! I will tell you all a little secret. This is the first time I’ve washed my hair in 6 weeks. Yep. That’s right. I washed my hair the week right before my Walmart expedition. Then I had weeks of having vertigo on and off and constant disequilibrium, I couldn’t wash my hair during that time. My personal hygiene consisted of washing up at the sink or sponge baths. Therefore, I am very grateful that I was able to take a bath, wash my hair, and shave my legs!!!
More things I’m grateful for this week!
That’s it for this week.
Some major things to be grateful for, and a few things I’m grateful for that some people probably wouldn’t notice.