Mindfulness Monday 20 – This moment


“Breathing in,
there is only the present moment.
Breathing out,
it is a wonderful moment.”
~ Thich Nhat Hanh


“If we are not fully ourselves,
truly in the present moment,
we miss every thing.”
~ Thich Nhat Hanh

Mindfulness Monday 19


by w holcombe

“When I run after what I think I want,
my days are a furnace of stress and anxiety;
if I sit in my own place of patience,
what I need flows to me and without pain.”

“There is a voice that doesn’t use words.

When A Virus Hits


*this post mentions poop.  if you are uncomfortable reading about poop or the smell of poop well, you probably shouldn’t have read this sentence….oops.  Really this is as bad as it gets so if you’ve gotten this far, you’ll be okay.

The past few days I’ve been a big poopy pants.  No really.  I’ve had some kind of bug that had me running to the bathroom constantly.  I’ve been trying to loose weight but this was not the way I planned.  I’m sure most of you can relate.

What most of you can’t relate to is how this virus affected the rest of me, namely my vestibular system. When something like this hits me my vestibular system seems to think it needs to attack me too.  I was suddenly having vertigo while fighting a vicious virus, well poop.  Running to the bathroom with the room spinning can be a challenge.  (thanks hubby for all the help, sorry about the smell.)

Any kind of stress can cause a person with Meniere’s to have more vertigo.  When my stress levels rise there is a strong likelihood I will have vertigo.  When my body is under stress there is even a greater likelihood that I will have vertigo.  A virus will often have my head spinning.  If I don’t have vertigo when I am stressed at the very least my balance will be more compromised than usual…yes even more than usual, it really is possible!

What can I do?  When I have a virus there isn’t much I can do about reducing my stress levels, but I can try.  I practice deep breathing exercises, not only does this reduce stress, it helps reduce nausea.  I sleep as much as possible.  When your sick sleep is a good thing. Really there isn’t a lot I can do, so when the vertigo comes I ride it out the way I do every vertigo attack and hope it isn’t going to be a bad one.  Luckily, the attacks I had during this virus were not very bad.  As long as I stayed calm, practiced mindfulness, and relaxed as much as possible I was able to get through it with as little extra stress to my body as possible.  This was very important, as I was really sick.

I’m pretty darn lucky  that I have a great hubby to help take care of me when things like this happen.  REALLY LUCKY!

Now it’s time to catch up on life.  What’s up with you?


Mindfulness Monday 18


As long as you are breathing
there is more right with you
than wrong with you.
~Jon Kabat-Zinn

It’s not a matter of letting go-
you would if you could.
Instead of “Let it go.”
we should probably say,
“Let it be.”
~Joh Kabat-Zinn

My Chronic Migraines


photo of and by w. holcombe

I have Chronic Migraines.  I’ve been told this before, it was said once again yesterday.  I’ve met a number of Neurologist who thought they could make it better.  I still have Chronic Migraines.

I’ve been to 2 Neurologists who are Headache Specialist.  There aren’t many of these doctors out there, I’m lucky that I have been able to see 2 of them.

The first specialist I was seeing was a Duke, I moved to Charlotte and started seeing a specialist here.  I never thought we’d get to the point where we are now.

I’ve tried so many medications.  I’ve tried Botox, and well just so many things.  There are some medications I can’t try because of reactions I’ve had to other medications.  My doctor is at the end of things to try.

I was taken off Topamax when I had the seizures because they thought that it may have caused them, now that we know it wasn’t the medication I can go back on it.  My migraines did get worse when I was off of it, but my headaches were a long way from being optimal when I was taking it.

Over the last 3 months I’ve had a migraine ever day except 8.  This does not include the headache I constantly have.  When I first started seeing the specialist here she thought we could get the daily headaches under control and then the migraines would get better, well neither of those things happened.

Now I’m going back on Topamax to at least get me back to where I was.  Having migraines about 15 days a months instead of about 30.

I saw my specialist yesterday and she said she is looking out for studies for me to participate in.  There is nothing else she can think of.

I’ve decided to go to a Functional Medicine group to see if they can help me. Unfortunately, they are not covered under my insurance so this can get quite costly.  I’m not sure how much I will be able to afford.

(Functional medicine is personalized medicine that deals with primary prevention and underlying causes instead of symptoms for chronic illness and disease.)

This is Invisible Illness Week.  I’m not sure I’ll get it together enough to really post much about it, but Migraines are an invisible illness.  I look perfectly fine yet I’m struggling every day.  I have Persistent Daily Headaches and Migraine headaches.  Every day my head hurts.

Remember, just because someone looks perfectly fine doesn’t mean they aren’t suffering silently.  We may look great and still be sick.

#ThisIsChronicIllness #InvisibleIllness


Mindfulness Quotes 17 – Hope


by w. holcombe – all rights reserved

Hope is important
because it can make the present moment less difficult to bear.
If we believe that tomorrow will be better,
we can bear a hardship today.
~Thich Nhat Hanh

You practice mindfulness,
on the one hand to be calm and peaceful.
On the other hand,
as you practice mindfulness and live a life of peace,
you inspire hope for a future of peace.
~Thich Nhat Hanh

I live in Charlotte, NC

I live in Charlotte, NC and I simply do not have the words to express how I’m feeling about the death of Keith Lamont Scott and the riots that have ensued afterward.

I’m a white woman.  I can’t know how people of color feel at this moment.  I know I’m sickened, saddened, and terrified by the travesties that have been happening.  I know that I am sick of the killings and the hate.  I know that hate breads hate and this is something that will continue until we learn to love and respect one another.  I know that the riots are not just about the death of Scott.  This has been a long time coming.

One of the best articles I’ve read about this event can be found here: Charlotte protesters say they are sick of “letting things slide”.

This article says much of what I would say if I had the words.  Please take the time to read it.

We as a nation need to embrace one another and learn from these travesties.  Please let it bring us together instead of pushing us further away.  Unfortunately, I don’t see that happening.  I see this growing bigger.  I see more hate filling the air.  I see a time when whites who love people of color have no idea what to say or do to help.  I’m one of those people.  I want to help.  All I can do is try to let it be known that I will not be silent any more.  I will not stand for these killings.  (I’m not just talking about the killing of Scott).  I will not turn a blind eye on the inequality that is being forced on people of color.  I can let people know I care.

Stop Killing

Stop Hating

Start Loving

Start standing up for what you believe.