Mindfulness Monday – Hatred

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“Hatred is never appeased by hatred in this world.
By non-hatred alone is hatred appeased.
this is a law eternal.”

~ Buddha

“As I walked out the door toward the gate that would lead to my freedom,
I knew if I didn’t leave my bitterness and hatred behind,
I’d still be in prison.”

~ Nelson Mandela

 

*photo by W. Holcombe.    Love everyone always.  xo

Mindfulness Monday – Patience

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“Adopt the pace of nature;
her secret is patience.”

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

 

“When I run after ehat I think I want,
my days are a furnace of stress and anxiety;
if I sit in my own place of patience,
what I need flows to me,
and without pain.”

~ Rumi

 

“Do you have patience to wait until your mud settles,
and the water is clear?
Can you remain unmoving until the right action arrives by itself?

~ Lao Tzu (Toa Te Ching)

 

*photo by W. Holcombe, all rights reserved.  Please do not use without permission.

Mindfulness Monday – words I needed to hear

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“Feel the feeling but don’t become the emotion.
Witness it.
Allow it.
Release it.”

~ Crystal Andrus

 

“You’re so hard on yourself.
Take a moment. Sit back.
Marvel at your life:
at the grief that softened you,
at the hearache that wisened you,
at the suffering that strengthened you.
Despite everything, you still grow.
Be proud of this.”

~ unknown

 

 

*image by w. holcombe.  all rights reserved.

Mindfulness Monday – Self Love

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“The first thing is to love yourself.
You cannot progress by self doubt and self hatred.
You can only progress by self love.”

~ Dipa Ma

 

“You can search throughout the entire universe
for someone who is more deserving
of your love and affection than you are yourself,
and that person is not to be found anywhere.
You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe,
deserve your love and affection”

~Buddha

 

**another photo by my friend Kara.  All rights reserved.  Please do not use.

The Boot and The Back

Friday was a normal day.  I didn’t have a lot to do (bored).  I’d been sitting in my chair reading when I got up to let our dog out.  I got about a two feet and I ran into this:20170718_112901

again…..and did this

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happened…..again.

About 4, or was it 5, years ago, I tripped on my walker and broke my foot.  At least that time I was using it.  On Friday it was just sitting beside me.  I haven’t needed it lately, but I keep it close, just in case.  A little too close to my foot as it turns out.

It hurt, like it does when you stub your toe, I didn’t think it was broken.  It just didn’t hurt enough.   I had this discussion with another chronically ill friend and she said the same thing about when she broke her foot.  It really speaks volumes as to how differently we feel pain.

Stuart talked me in to going to Urgent Care to get it checked out since I’d broken it before,  and was told it would be easier to break again, I decided it’d probably be a good idea.  (I hate to say it, but knowing we have met our out of pocket maximum for the year, made it an easier decision.)  I hobbled in Urgent Care, got checked in and was seen right away.  I had an x-ray and the attending physician said my x-ray showed irregularities.  She couldn’t tell if what she was seeing was all from the last break or if it was a new break.   She thought it was broken, but a radiologist needed to read it to be certain.  I was sent home with The Boot, and the radiologist would call on Monday.  They did, and it is broken.

This time it’s not as bad as it was the first time.  I didn’t twist my ankle or anything like that.  I’ll be in the boot for 4 weeks instead of 12.   It’s hot and heavy, but it is taking good care of my broken foot, for that I love my boot.

On the other end, I started physical therapy (PT) for my back last week.  What’s wrong with my back you ask?  I’m not exactly sure.  I did fall, so I might have wrenched it then. (that was over a month ago).  I had severe akathisia (the need to keep moving) for over a month.  This caused me to constantly tense my muscles.   It’s possible, my back just never calmed down.   I also have arthritis in my neck, this is causing a lot of pain recently.  PT will hopefully help that as well.

So far, I feel like the PT has been aggravating my arthritis.  I discussed this with my physical therapist yesterday and he did a few things differently.  Hopefully, these changes will improve the pain and still help me get stronger.  If not, I know I can talk with him about it and we will work to make it better, to make me better.   I’m so impressed by this office.  Appointments are supposed to an hour long.  As most of us know, that normally means you are actually seen about 45 minutes, sometimes less.   My normal amount of time at this office is 1 hour 15 mins.  Yesterday I was there for an hour and a half.  I hope I get the results I’m looking for, it won’t be for lack of trying.

I’m happy to say that my migraines are still much, much better.  I’ve had a few, but nothing like I was.   I haven’t had a lot of vertigo.  This past week I’ve had a few times where I’ve had really fast spins that last for just a couple of seconds, or very slow movement that I can barely see (but it makes me very nauseous).  Overall, I’m feeling healthier than I have in years.  I don’t know how long this will last, so I’m trying hard to make the most of this time.

Mindfulness Monday – Laughter

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“Live simply.
Dream big.
Be grateful.
Give love.
Laugh lots.”

~Paulo Coelho

 

“When you realize how perfect everything is,
you will tilt your head back and laugh at the sky.”

~Buddha

 

“The body heals with play,
the mind heals with laughter
and the spirit heals with joy.”

~ unknown

 

*photo by my friend Kara.