Mini Update … I tried

I know you can normally find Mindfulness Monday here each week, I tried, but I haven’t been able to write much and I thought I’d explain why.  (it has taken me many days to write this post, so bare with me…mmmkay?)

You may recall that I had De Quervain’s tenosynovitis in my left wrist/thumb earlier this year (you can read about it here), but you may have missed that I now have it in my right wrist.  The left wrist was treated with a cortisone shot and since then I’ve had no problem.  I’ve had 2 cortisone injections in my right wrist and I’m still in pain.  (you can see pictures from the first injection here)  I had the second shot on my birthday (July 2nd) my wrist felt better the first day after the injection, but by the second day I was back to the original symptoms and by the 3rd day it was actually worse.   When I went in for the second injection he gave me the option of having surgery or trying the injection again, he told me that if it didn’t work to just call and schedule the surgery I didn’t even need to come in again.  So I chose to try the injection again, to say those injections are not pleasant is a huge understatement, but I was really hoping to avoid surgery.  After a week, when it was evident that the shot didn’t work, we called to set up the surgery and were told that it was too soon after the injection, I have to wait 4-6 weeks.  I was not a happy person.  I have a lot of limitations because of this issues; I can’t write or draw, I have extreme difficulty brushing my hair, typing, cooking, picking things up with my right hand, swimming…I’ve wearing a brace that holds my wrist and thumb stable, if I don’t wear the brace, I can’t do much at all…unfortunately the brace has started to cause issues on it’s own, 20180717_113113

so I have to stop wearing it.  The good news is that the surgery is almost always successful, and it’s very minimally invasive, in fact they often do it with local anesthesia.  (I will admit I’m a bit intimidated by that, I don’t want to see them cut on my arm…ewww, but I also hate going under general anesthesia, so we’ll see)   I was having a hard time accepting that fact that they were making me wait for the surgery, honestly I was pretty pissed; then I remembered that the way to happiness is acceptance.  I decided to look at the whole situation differently.  It’s only a few weeks difference, they aren’t saying I have to be stuck like this forever.  I stated taking extra supplements that are supposed to help with joint and inflammation issues, hopefully this will reduce the swelling and some pain.  (if you’re interested I’m taking extra turmeric, collagen, glucosamine..I think that’s all)  Even though I’ll still need surgery, if the swelling is down, it should help with recovery.  Accepting this situation made life a bit happier.

On another note, I’m having increased migraines, often with migraine associated vertigo, and cluster headaches.  When we first got here my head actually felt better, but that didn’t last long.  Bright lights are a big trigger for me and it’s really bright here, more than that, now it’s monsoon season so the barometric pressure has been all over the place with crazy storms almost every day, my head is definitely feeling it. 20180716_172608

I’m also having a lot more cluster headaches and I don’t have anything to help them.  I saw a new headache specialist about 3 weeks ago, I wrote about it here.  I felt optimistic after that visit, but I haven’t received the gammaCore that he prescribed, it was supposed to arrive in about 5 days.  We called to find out the status and no one called back, so we called again, and still no call back.  I know that the office was moving but that doesn’t excuse them from paying attention  to their patients.  **Update**  They called late yesterday and it seems that the doctor didn’t have us fill out a form that he should have, so it delayed everything.  The nurse who called said she’s fill it all out and we could sign it the next time we are there, so the gammaCore is now on it’s way!  I should receive it by the end of the week!  Thank goodness.  (the gammaCore treats both cluster headaches and migraines!  again, Thank Goodness!!

So that’s what’s been keeping me away….along with other stress, but that’s for a different day when I can actually type without being in intense pain.  Hunting and pecking with my left hand is not fun.  🙂

“Accept – then act.

Whatever the present moment contains,

Accept it as if you had chosen it.

Always work with it,

Not against it….

This will miraculously transform your whole life.”

~ Eckhart Tolle

 

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Mindfulness Monday – Eckhart Tolle

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“Be the silent watcher of your thoughts and behavior.

You are beneath the thinker.

You are the stillness beneath the mental noise.

You are the love and joy beneath the pain.”

~ Eckhart Tolle

 

“In today’s rush,

we all think too much-

seek too much-

want too much-

and forget about the joy

of just being.”

~Eckhart Tolle

 

“The ultimate truth of

who you are is not

I am this or

I am that, but

I AM”

~Eckhart Tolle

 

 

*image by and of W. Holcombe.  do not use without permission

Mindfulness Monday – change

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“Some changes look negative on the surface

but you will soon realize that space is being created

in your life for something new to emerge.”

~ Eckhart Tolle

 

“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes.

Don’t resist them;

that only creates sorrow.

Let reality be reality.

Let things flow naturally forward

in whatever way they like.”

~ Lao Tzu

 

 

**photo by W. Holcombe.  Tulip Magnolia in my backyard, the beginning of Spring 2018

All rights reserved.  Please do not copy without permission.

 

#HAWMC Day 3 – Quote

Today is Day 3 of #HAWMC (WEGO’s Health Activist Writers Monthly Challenge).  The prompt today is:

Quotation Inspiration. Find a quote that inspires you (either positively or negatively) and free write about it for 15 minutes.

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I post mindfulness quotes on my blog every Monday, this quote from James Baraz is my favorite it shows the essence of mindfulness in just a few lines.

“Mindfulness is simply being aware of what is happening right now without wishing it were different;  enjoying the pleasant without holding on when it changes (which it will); being with the unpleasant without fearing it will always be this way (which it won’t).” – James Baraz

When I read these words they resonate with me.  When I’m having a good time and I realize I may pay for it later, I understand that things will change and I will be okay with it.  I will not try to hold on to these good times, I know it will end and that’s okay.  It is this moment that counts.

I really rely on this quote during bad times.  “being with the unpleasant without fearing it will always be this way (which it won’t)”  What an inspiring thing to say.  Remember no matter how bad it is, this moment will not last.  Things will change.  The unpleasant moment will not be here forever.  When I go through a difficult medical test or treatment, I remember, it will not last forever.  Things will get better.   When I’m in the middle of a vertigo attack, I constantly remind myself that it will not always be this way.  It will change.  The vertigo will stop.  It-will-stop.  It will not always be this way.  This is very important when I have vertigo because during an attack I am always afraid it will not end.  Remembering that it will end, that all unpleasantness has an ending, helps.

There is another quote that I think goes well with this one.  It is by Eckhart Tolle – “Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it. Always work with it, not against it.”

I think on this a lot.  When I am having a bad day I remind myself to accept this day as if I had chosen it.  If I chose it then there is nothing wrong with it.  How can I not like it, if I chose it?   If I’m having a vertigo attack, I will work with it, not against it, and things work out much better for me.  (I must say here that vertigo attacks are one of the most horrific things I have every experienced, if not the MOST horrific.  Vertigo attacks with Meniere’s Disease can last for a few minutes to days. Normally mine last for hours….many hours.)

These are a couple of quotes that get me through the day.  There are many mindfulness quotes that run through my mind when I’m having a particularly rough time.  Reading inspirational quotes really helps me keep a good grasp on things.

I have one more quote that really gets me through.

i-believe-in-youMy mother told me this often.  I particularly remember her telling me this when I was in college.  I was the first in my family to graduate from college, when I was attending there were a few times that I doubted myself.  I was going through a very rough time undiagnosed with Bipolar disorder.  I was misdiagnosed for a long time.  When I was in college it was a very rough time, but my mother always believed in me.  It has always meant a lot to me to have that belief.   I have found that the people who touch me on my blog believe in me and I believe in them.  This is a great support system.  This is very important when you have a chronic illness.  This quote is very important.  Remember, I believe in you.

If you’d like to read more posts from today please check out WEGO’s Facebook page.  and don’t forget to check out Picnic With Ant’s Facebook Page too.  🙂

*all artwork on Picnic with Ants has been created by Wendy Holcombe unless otherwise noted.  (I can’t remember if I created the “I believe in you” graphic or not.  It was in my files)

Mindfulness Monday 13

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If your relationship to the present moment is not right
nothing can ever be right in the future
because when the future comes
it’s the present moment.

~Eckhart Tolle

 

The primary cause of unhappiness
is never the situation
but your thoughts about it.

~Eckhart Tolle

 

 

I’m Perfect.

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by w. holcombe

 

“Life is simple.

Everything happens for you, not to you.

Everything happens at exactly the right moment, neither too soon nor too late.

You don’t have to like it… it’s just easier if you do.”

― Byron Katie

 

 

“On a deeper level you are already complete.  

When you realize that, there is joyous energy behind what you do.” 

— Eckhart Tolle

“On a deeper level you are already complete. When you realize that, there is a joyous energy behind what you do.” ~Eckhart Tolle – See more at: http://tinybuddha.com/blog/10-ways-i-know-theres-nothing-wrong-with-you-or-me/#sthash.nD2LjiuD.dpuf
“On a deeper level you are already complete. When you realize that, there is a joyous energy behind what you do.” ~Eckhart Tolle – See more at: http://tinybuddha.com/blog/10-ways-i-know-theres-nothing-wrong-with-you-or-me/#sthash.nD2LjiuD.dpuf
“On a deeper level you are already complete. When you realize that, there is a joyous energy behind what you do.” ~Eckhart Tolle – See more at: http://tinybuddha.com/blog/10-ways-i-know-theres-nothing-wrong-with-you-or-me/#sthash.nD2LjiuD.dpuf
“On a deeper level you are already complete. When you realize that, there is a joyous energy behind what you do.” ~Eckhart Tolle – See more at: http://tinybuddha.com/blog/10-ways-i-know-theres-nothing-wrong-with-you-or-me/#sthash.nD2LjiuD.dpuf
“On a deeper level you are already complete. When you realize that, there is a joyous energy behind what you do.” ~Eckhart Tolle – See more at: http://tinybuddha.com/blog/10-ways-i-know-theres-nothing-wrong-with-you-or-me/#sthash.nD2LjiuD.dpuf