Ten Things I’m Thankful for This Week

Last week was my first time participating in the Ten Things of Thankful challenge, and it made me feel really good.  This week my ten things were not as obvious; I think that  makes it even more important to take note of them.  I’ll be the first to admit, I did not have a good week.  A lot of pain and stress has taken hold of my body, I’m holding on, but it’s getting difficult.  It’s time to step back and figure out how I can make things a little less demanding.  Every weekend is filled with so much to do, when it gets to be Monday I’m in full flare.  That has to stop, but I really like my busy weekends. I haven’t been able to do any of these things in so long, it does my heart good to be able to do them now, but my body is not as happy with me, and I’m afraid if I don’t slow down my body is going to make me.

I’m so very thankful:

  • for my amazing friends who keep me going every day.  Some I “talk” with almost every day, some I don’t keep in touch with as often. but I know they are there for me, and I am so very, very thankful for that.  I can only hope they know I’m there for them too.  I love my people.
  • that I didn’t get really hurt when I fell down the other day.  Yep, I fell, again.  Hey, it’s been a while, and I didn’t fall because I was dizzy or anything like that, I fell because I stepped on something slippery and my foot flew out from under me.  Mostly, it just scared me.
  • that I was able to go back-to-school shopping with my niece.  It’s so much fun getting to know my niece and nephew, I’m so grateful we can now spend so much time together.
  • that a local friend of mine texted me today saying that if there is every an emergency I can call on her.  That really meant the world to me.  She’s local, and I haven’t even seen her yet, I must rectify that.
  • that I have Air Conditioning.  It has been dangerously hot here; I honestly don’t know how anyone could live here without A/C.  There are so many homeless people here, I don’t know how they survive in this heat.  I’m so grateful I have a safe home and don’t have to live on the streets, my heart goes out to those who do.
  • that I have been having fun learning to decorate cookies.  I’ve only just begun to learn about it, but I’m having so much fun discovering this new art form.  I attempted my first watercolor on a cookie this week, it turned out pretty cool, not perfect, but not too bad. 20180725_121650
  • That my father-in-law is letting me use one of his cars, and it’s a really cool car too.  I’m just beginning to drive again, after a few years, so it feels amazing to be able to get to go somewhere whenever I want.  I’ve only gone on one errand so far, I’m very nervous driving here because I don’t know the area and I can’t hear the GPS.  I need to get a GPS that I can see without taking my eyes off the road, that would make things much easier.
  • for cooler mornings.  I’m trying to get up earlier so I can enjoy the weather before it gets too hot, some days I make it, other days, I don’t get out much.
  • that my surgery is soon.  Just got a call this evening that my surgery date has been changed to the 7th. This is causing a bit of inconvenience with Stuart and work. as that was supposed to be a training day for him, I’m grateful he will still be able to take me.
  • that I was able to do write a post.  With my wrist pain, migraines, and additional pain this week, I didn’t think I’d be able to get this done, I’m so grateful that I could do it.

What are you thankful for this week?  I’d love for you to share with me just one thing you are grateful for this week!!

I’ll try and write more about my surgery soon, a little mini update before I have to disappear for a while.

I’m always thankful for you.


Short chat….Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow.

I don’t have the stamina to be on the computer for long today so we’ll have to make this chat a short one.  Go ahead, pour yourself a cup of tea, grab a biscuit (cookie) and let’s have a talk shall we?

Oh wouldn’t it be grand to meet in a coffee house, or even my house and have a beverage and just chat, like I used to with friends…go out to lunch….play with their kids…go shopping…ect.  But that was my yesterday.  Do I want that life back?  No.  I want to do some of the things I used to, but I like me more now.  I know me better, and I like me more.  I used to speak and feel I had such conviction about something, then I’d talk with a different friend and find I didn’t feel the same when I was with them.  I would get caught up in the gossip chain, or maybe even start one, I was moody, people would hurt me without knowing it….or maybe they did, doesn’t matter.  I took too much to heart, and really didn’t know myself well enough to have a true friendship.  At least I feel that way now, after all, there isn’t really anyone out their any more.  And I’m sorry, but Facebook does not a friend make…not without a lot of effort off Facebook too.  But that was many yesterdays ago.

Oh boy, already not a short chat.  Guess I needed to have a heart to heart. 

Just about me…..I’ve had a LOT of severe disequilibrium and minor vertigo attacks.  By a LOT, it means I’m feeling disequilibrium most of the time, unless I’m very, very still.  The vertigo, pretty much every day, often more than once.  But if I can get the Valium and Phenergan in fast the vertigo attacks don’t last long.  I told Stuart I feel like everything is so surreal.  He didn’t understand, maybe one of you will.  The world starts to move and my brain seems to slow down.

Last Thursday, I was excited about getting my Cochlear Implant processors and getting activated.  I got up and started to get ready.  I brushed my hair, and started to get dressed.  I put on one article of clothing, and turned around too fast.  I did a nice twirl in the room and tried to get close to the wall or bed, but I knew if I fell toward the bed from my distance I’d hit the foot of the bed hard.  So I turned and hit the floor, twisted my left wrist a little, kind of did a flip and BAM!  Flat on my back!  First thoughts, “Stupid! I know better!” “Ouch! My head hurts!”  Then Stuart rushed in.  “I fall down” (sad face)  He agreed I fell down.  He asked to help me up, I told him my head hurt and when I tried to move it my neck hurt….I thought I’d just lie there for a bit.  He was cooking breakfast so I shooed him away so he wouldn’t burn my breakfast. (smile, I just didn’t want to worry him too much and needed time to check things out).  I rolled over, and climbed carefully back on the bed.  I was so sore, already.  I knew I couldn’t go to the audiologist to get my processors, the appointment takes about 3 hours, no way could I go and be a good patient.  So we had to postpone……AGAIN.  So, today I’m recovering from Whiplash!

Tomorrow, I have my rescheduled appointment with the Cochlear Implant audiologist.  This is actually an administration day for her, but she wanted to get me in as soon as she could.  (how sweet is that?)  Barring no strange incidents, or my normal horrors, I will be getting my bright orange processors tomorrow!  Then I’ll hand out candy for Trick-or-Treaters.  I hope I have the energy, hubby will be in class.  Halloween is my favorite holiday, so good things will happy, I just know it!!

There it is my short chat for today.

Perhaps next time we can have cake.  (gluten-free, of course…really I make a really good cake!)

PS.  I just read this post and realized it only pointed out the troubles I’ve been having, there is much more to a day than that!  There is much I’m grateful for, and some wonders I’ve accomplished.  I’ve been going down stairs almost every day!!  After a doctor’s appointment I went out to eat with my husband!  I’ve been reading a lot and have enjoyed several books I found free on Amazon for the Kindle that I normally wouldn’t have read.  I’m sooooo thankful that Stuart was able to fix my Kindle!  I missed it so much when it wasn’t working.

There is much more…oh like a bath all by myself!  A lot of deep breathes and positive talks to do that one, of course I had vertigo within a couple of hours, but not in the tub!  Victory!!!

Just wanted to end on a more positive note, after all, these are the things I think more about each day.  The rest is just stuff.  I would compare it to having a job that takes up so much of my time and I don’t enjoy it, but it’s stuff that has to be done.  Then there is the rest of my life.  Walking up and down the stairs one foot at a time, with no help!  Cuddling with my hubby!  Writing letters.  Having heart to heart “talks” with my friends…..amazing how I haven’t actually met most of these people I consider my dearest friends.

I love you friends!


Such a Tight Group – I’ve noticed 2 AWOL

We are such a tight group, it’s so comforting to me, and sometimes so heart wrenching.

I may not know my on line friends in person, but I feel their pain just as much as I would if they were standing right here with me.  If they have a set back, I feel it.  If they have a loss, I feel it.  In the same way, if they have a milestone, I’m feeling their joy, if they learn something new I’m so very thrilled.  I share in their pain, their joys, and all the things in between.

I also worry when they disappear.

I had an email friend simply disappear for months.  Where did she go?  Was she Okay?  Turns out, yes.  Just busy and lost track of me.  That’s alright.  I’m just grateful she’s alright.

Now I’m VERY concerned.  TWO of my regular blogging friends have been AWOL since the 18th and 19th.  Where could they be. Both of these women normally post almost every day, if they don’t post, they comment on someone’s blog.  I haven’t noticed any action from either.  These women both have some serious medical conditions that could cause them to have to be hospitalized at a moment’s notice.  However, I’m just a blogging friend.  What can I do?  I’ve emailed both.  One I also messaged on Facebook, and messaged her husband on Facebook.  I have both of their home addresses, and considered calling the police to see if they could just drop by to check on them, but they don’t live alone, I know they would have been cared of if something happened.  The best scenario.  Computer crash!  I don’t have phone numbers.  I’ve never thought to ask, heck, I don’t want to seem like an on-line stalker.  And I’m VERY hard of hearing, what do I need someone’s phone number for?  I feel very helpless at this moment.

Most everyone who reads this blog knows Judith of Creativity to the Max – if you have heard from her, please let me know.  I’m worried about our tribal leader.

You may also have heard me talk about Fiona of The Angoaraphobic’s Blog – she has been pretty sick lately.  And from what I can see hasn’t been on line or on Facebook since the 19th.  She isn’t usually out of contact with me this long, especially since my new diagnosis.  I did just message her husband on Facebook, so I’m hoping he will let me know what’s going on.  She’s in Australia, and Judith’s on the opposite side of the country from me, it’s not like I can just jump in the car and go check on them

So everyone please, put your feelers out, if you have heard anything.  Let me know.

You know how this child worries, and stress is not good for me!