I’m sorry. I haven’t been paying attention to my blog and I haven’t been supporting others. I’m sure you all think I’ve dropped off the earth….maybe not, maybe it’s just me.
I mentioned in a previous post that I hurt my back. Um, kinda. I started having back spasms as side effects to a medication back in May, then the med was changed and I was put on another that caused akathisia (the need to move – like restless leg all over), this caused my muscles to tighten even more. I saw my GP about it and she gave me muscle relaxants. It didn’t get better. I was sent to PT. It didn’t get better. I was put in steroids, they seemed to help some. I was sent to a specialist, he gave me lidocaine injections in my back. I was much worse the next day. After a couple of days of that, I was once again put on steroids. This time I think I’m having every negative side effect you can have from a short dose of steroids.
These side effects are hell. (they are getting better) My moods, oh my goodness. I’m so sad, I am crying all the time. I’m scared, I keep having feelings of intense fear wash over me. Two nights ago, I was convinced I was dying. I’ve been having slow moving vertigo, I barely see it moving, but I feel like I’m moving, and I can’t walk without help. My head has been killing me. Extreme nausea has plagued me. I can’t sleep. and I’ve had 2 seizures. Oh, let’s just say, I’m going through a rough time. But don’t worry, it’s getting better. I know my mood swings are from the steroids, but it’s hard to deal with. Poor hubby.
Speaking of hubby, he has worked from home the past 3 days. He hasn’t wanted to leave my side. I’m so very grateful to have such a supportive and caring spouse. He makes me want to be a better person.
After all of this, my back still hurts. I still have 2 days of steroids left, and I have exercises to do, hopefully that will get me on the road to recovery. To be clear, according to x-rays I have no damage to my bones, it’s all muscular. The muscles simply will not relax and they spasm often. I have not had an MRI. I cannot have an MRI because of my cochlear implants. If they need more imaging it will have to be a CT scan. We’ll cross that bridge if it comes.
Forgive me this post of self pity. I will try to post more often, and get out there and support others too. I miss you.