I have Bipolar I, that means that I have the highs (mania) and the lows (depression) that go with Bipolar. I’ve been mostly stable for the past 20 years. However, for over 2 years I’ve been fighting depression pretty hard. I’ve been on different medications, but I was not feeling better. I kept thinking it was everything that was happening in my life. Having vertigo almost every day, losing more of my independence, moving so hubby could have a job after being laid off for over a year, having to have my hip replaced due to Avascular Necrosis, well you get the picture.
I saw a new psychiatrist last month, he took me off of one antidepressant that obviously wasn’t working and put me on another medication. It is like a veil lifted from over me, the darkness has given way to light. I no longer cry every day. I’m feeling hopeful. I feel like me. OK, now I’m going to cry, from from relief and happiness.
My new psychiatrist told me something interesting, he said that often later in life a person with Bipolar I doesn’t have as many highs they have more depression. (I’m 52, I’ve shown signs of Bipolar since I was a child.) So he so he decided to put me on a drug that is for Bipolar Depression. The drug is is “a psychiatric medication that belongs to the class of drugs called atypical antipsychotics. It works by helping to restore the balance of certain natural substances in the brain.” It has been a month and I’m amazed at how much better I feel. Even when things have happened that would have upset me, I’ve handled it with ease. How cool is that?
I’m so very grateful that someone and something was able to help.
I haven’t mentioned the names of any of the drugs because I don’t want anyone to think I’m advertising for it. If you want to know, I’ll be happy to tell you in a comment.
today is a good day.
one moment at a time.