This is the final week of the Chronic Pain and Illness Photography Project I have been participating in for the past 3 weeks. Facilitator Stephanie Blumensaat did a marvelous job putting this project together and keeping the group running smoothly. What a wonderful group of creative people who were willing to share so much of their art, their lives and their souls. Simply amazing. Stephanie has a blog, Chronic Pain Life, that you just might want to check out. She will be putting together future projects that some of you might want to participate in, I know I will.
I hope you enjoy these photos and insights into me….
Day 15 – Gratitude. – posting a day late
Truthfully, I’m very grateful the day is over.
One dream I always had was to go to Disney Land, not Disney World, I wanted to go to the original.
Right before I got very sick, I was able to go. This is the land of dreams….a place where dreams come true…..the photo is the refection of the castle. I think this photo is very symbolic of my dreams today, they are very vivid and beautiful, a little wavy, and sometimes a bit upside down….that doesn’t mean I’ve stopped dreaming.
I still have many dreams, some are short term, some are long term, some are very attainable, some probably aren’t. And that’s OK. I think healthy people have the same kind of dreams….not all come true.
This prompt was very hard for me. If I were able to really get up and out and create a new photograph for this prompt I would have done something different.
How do I Identify myself now? I’m still Wendy.
Do not lose yourself.
I took the selfie yesterday and manipulated it in Photoshop to show my spiritual side.
I follow a mindfulness way of living.
This has made a huge difference in my life, and how I deal with chronic illnesses.
Take more risk…..overcome fear….first step!….walk out the front door…..
We moved to a new place in August of last year. During the move my hip started to hurt. I haven’t been able to hardly walk since the move. I had hip replacement surgery on the 14th. I’m starting to walk again, that is going very well. However, I’ve had vertigo attacks every day for over 30 days. Fear rules my life. I started to get in the shower today, and was then going to go to the store with my husband. A first outing since my surgery, other than to the doctor….
Get out that door!
Expand my life!
I know I can do it!
Day 21 – Invisible
Invisible Illness and me
“You look so good!”
Just beneath the surface
no one can see
Day 22 – Music (bonus prompt)
As most of you may know, I’m deaf. My chronic illness took my hearing. I haven’t been deaf long, and music is still in my head and I still sing and love music…I just can’t listen to it. (I have Cochlear Implants and can hear some music but not like I used to. Hopefully, I will be able to hear it better in the future, but for now, not so much.)
When I relax I often hum, when I’m up I often sing, my husband and I often make up silly songs and laugh…..the silly songs are wonderful, they make me feel normal, and keep up my spirits. Music can be very therapeutic.
Today I wanted to share something different with you.
A few years ago, right before I lost all of my hearing I sat down with a friend of mine who is a sound engineer and he did a pretty good recording of what my tinnitus sounds like. These are the sounds I hear all the time. I don’t hear the worst of it all the time, but I do hear some of these all the time.
One day recently I suddenly didn’t hear anything and it scared me. I felt completely alone and was terrified. It didn’t last long. These sounds can drive me crazy at times, but they can also be very soothing.
This is my music….my Sounds of Silence.
Day 23 – Art (bonus prompt)
I use my art to help me with my chronic illness in many ways.
Here you will see where I have three expressions of me.
Silly loving Me.
Chronic Pain Me.
Natural, Strong Me.
I try to create something every day….drawing, writing, photography……anything creative…..
My art helps me heal, even if I’m just doodling, creating heals my soul.
(sometimes when I can’t voice my pain, I can show it in my art)
The Chronic Pain and Illness Photography Project is over now. I’ll be returning to my regular scheduled programming. 🙂
I’m sure my regular readers are curious about my hip replacement surgery recovery. I’ll give you a thorough update in the next post….here’s a little spoiler….my hip is doing GREAT!
See you soon. I’m off to Duke for visits to my doctors tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day….. Yay!!
6 thoughts on “Chonic Pain/Ilness Photography 2015 Project Week 3”
I had to run “put my ears on” (my cochlear implant) to see if your “sounds of silence” (tinnitus) sound like my “sounds of silence”. They are similar, but different in that my tones are all much higher. Left ear is a little lower, but both higher than your clip. Interesting!
Sorry about the fur-baby. Hope they are doing better!
Ha Denise! running to put on your “ears”! I know my “sounds of silence” sound a bit difference than the recording on here. I did this when I still had some hearing in one ear. The recording is actually done so that if you were listening to it with ear phones it is separated so that you are hearing what I heard in each ear. (hope that made sense). I don’t have the banging as often now, and I often have this sound that’s like an Emergency Broadcast Signal for a while. But mine is a lower pitch.
Higher frequencies really bother me with my CI’s. We can’t seem to get that right.
Does your hearing still fluctuate? My hearing fluctuates a LOT! Can’t get the mapping on my CI’s regulated well because my hearing fluctuates so much. (It is different in the morning than it is in the evening.) a lot of people with Meniere’s will find it changes after an attack, but mine changes much more often. My Audiologist just wrote a paper on it.
My fury baby is just fine. She they think she pulled a muscle playing. She just cried out in pain. She did it again once more but just for a second and that was it. She’s just fine. Thank you for your concern.
Good luck at Duke — I hope all goes well.
I just looked at your day 20 post. I too have never really recovered from my last move and that was over a year ago. Since then, I haven’t walked as well as I could before.
This may have already come up, but your dizziness sounds a lot like an inner ear thing I get sometimes that, for me, has a very easy cure; the pills literally start working within an hour. I assume you’ve talked to your doctor about your vertigo, but I thought I’d mention it just in case you haven’t.
Oh Charlotte, Thank you for thinking of me…I do have an ear disorder. I have a vestibular illness that causes my vertigo. It isn’t curable. So yep it has to do with my ears. It’s called Meniere’s Disease…well actually, it’s “More than Meniere’s” they actually don’t know what I have. This disease also caused my deafness. My doctors at Duke have suggested I go to John Hopkins vestibular clinic, but I don’t have the money right now. It causes vertigo with no warning.
I also have migraines that cause vertigo and I have BPPV (Benign paroxysmal positional vertigo) that’s caused by crystals that form in your ear and they can come dislodged sometimes. but the migraine vertigo and BPPV is not as often as the other vertigo.
Thank you again for thinking about me.
I hate you haven’t recovered from your last move. Since my surgery my hip is doing better. I don’t know when my back will get better. I sure hope it does.
Unfortunately, I know we will be moving again. This move was temporary. ugh!
My vestibular condition has also caused me to have disequilibrium all the time. so I’m always a bit off. and I fall a lot.
I left a comment on YouTube – under your vid, and pinned from there to two of my Boards on Pinterest with the following comment:
The next time you begin to feel like distractibility is about to get the best of you, click image to listen to THIS, and you will thank your lucky stars! READ the text & comments too. | Wendy – Tinnitus – “My Songs of Silence” ~mgh (added a link back to your blog on the Blogs and Bloggers Board).
If I were a rich woman, I would SEND you to the Hopkins vestibular clinic! Alas! All I can offer is love and support. I’m glad your hip is healing – and that your puppy is okay.
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