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November 4th….

On By WendyIn Chronic IllnessLeave a comment

I’m still not feeling great.  So this won’t be a long post, I thought I’d look at the prompt from National Health Bloggers Posting Month, and try to go from there.

Today’s Prompt: What happens after you press “publish”.  Write about your post-blog-writing process.  Do you immediately tweet a link?  Email it to everyone? Re-read it for spelling errors?

This is pretty easy for me.  I try to read over my post and look at a preview of it before I hit “publish” so I don’t need to review it for errors.  Sometimes, I don’t.  Sometimes, I’ve spilled so much of me that I can’t bear to read it again at that moment.  I need to just get it out, let me and my readers digest it together.  If you are a regular reader of mine, you know I’m not the best at catching grammatical errors any way…no matter how many times I read it over.

So, sometimes, I just hit publish and let it ride.  Do I immediately tweet it?  I used to, but I realized I never look at Twitter, so I felt kind of silly doing it.  I used to post it on Facebook.  Finally, I decided, that everyone I know knows I have a blog, if they want to read it, they can, if they don’t, that’s OK too.  There have been days when I wished that my family and friends didn’t know about my blog.  They don’t have a chronic illness, and I don’t want them to only think of me as someone with this or that disease.

So what do I do after I hit Publish?  Usually, I view it on my blog to see if it really published.  I often have to edit it, because I’ve forgotten to add tags.  (I do that a lot.)

Usually, after I publish my post, I try to go through my reader and look at what my friends have posted.

Then I just wait on comments.  : )

This post was written as part of NHBPM – 30 health posts in 30 days: http://bit.ly/vU0g93, and NaBloPoMo.



			
					

	




			
				


			

		

			
What is Between Love and Hate?

						

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This was actually a prompt on NaBloPoMo in October, I saw it on another’s blog and started to think about it…and realized the answer…Me.


To be more specific, how I feel about me and the things that have been happening to me.


I still love me….but at times I really hate my life.  I know that sounds negative, and I don’t mean that I always feel this way…but sometimes…when I get overwhelmed by the losses, the pain, the vertigo….I hate it.


Such a dichotomy.  Sometimes I feel there are two of me.  There is the person who hates all of this, who just wants everything to return to normal, to be like it used to be.  Then, there is the person, who is grateful (yes, grateful) for all that I have learned, the friends I’ve made, the life I have now.


Yes, I have chronic illnesses, I often wish I didn’t.  However, they don’t define who I am.  I’ve found that some people only think of me in terms of my illnesses now.  That’s sad.  They can’t see the person I still am, or the better person I’ve become.  I do feel I’m a better person now.  Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t a bad person before, but I feel better about myself now.  I actually have more confidence, feel like I can make a difference in a person’s life, and I’m more appreciative of what I have.


Do I hate my life…sometimes.  But most of the time, no.  My illnesses are a part of me.  It isn’t all bad.  Yes, I have some very bad days.  However, I feel closer to my husband than ever.  I have a great support system.  There is much to be grateful for.


What is between love and hate?  Perhaps, acceptance.  Accepting that the things I hate and the things I love about me can live together in harmony.


This post was written as part if NHBPM – 30 health post in 30 days: http://bit.ly/vU0g93, and is also a part of NaBloPoMo.


P.S. – Update 2 weeks after the last patches.  I think they are working.  The spinning is better.  I have a bit more energy.  Some days are better than others, but over all, I think I’m better.  I have been having migraines, but I really think they are more weather related.  My hearing hasn’t returned, but to live without the spinning, I’ll learn to live with the loss of hearing.