Writing this is causing me a lot of pain, so bare with me.
Is 2020 really over? Funny, I still feel the same.
Maybe after January 20th, when our new president takes office I’ll feel different. I’m sure I’ll feel better mentally and emotionally, but physically, not so much.
The nerve pain is excruciating. I wake up each morning in such severe pain I pray to die. However, I do have a little bit of hope that things will get better. I started seeing a physical therapist last week who specializes in nerve pain. He says my nerves are lit up like a Christmas tree. Yup, I believe it. We aren’t sure why, there could be numerous reasons, or no reason at all. I only know that it is the worst pain that I could ever imagine. If you have been following my blog for a while, you know I’m no stranger to severe pain. The medication, gabapentin, isn’t working any more. and I don’t know if increasing the dose would do any good. My physical therapist is helping me calm the nerves down. He said all of my pain is connected. My migraine, back pain, and this horrendous pain in my arms and hands, all connected. He believes we can get it better, but it will take a long time. Unfortunately, until then typing causes such severe pain I simply can’t do it for long. I’m wring this a sentence at a time, then I have to rest. But……
I have hope.
I think hope is what got us through this past year, and will continue to get us through until we can all get back to normal.
Until typing no longer causes so much pain, I won’t be here much. Please know, I will be back as soon as I’m able, and I miss you all.
May this year be filled with love, and hope.