Surgery is in 4 days.
I’ve been very nervous about a few things, mostly my vertigo and how it will affect my recovery. I don’t like not having a plan. When I don’t have a plan, I get scared. I don’t like to admit fear. I’m not nervous about the surgery itself. I’m not nervous about normal hip replacement recovery. I’m nervous about what I’ll do if I have a vertigo attack right after surgery. What will I do if I can’t roll over on my left side if I have positional vertigo and the only way it is relieved is by lying on my left side?……I’m afraid of falling…….I’m afraid of how I’ll bathe …..
Then I really sat down and faced my fears….What if?
Really, what if these things happened, what is the worst that would happen?
About having positional vertigo….I can’t lie on my left side….ok, maybe it will be relieved by just turning my head to the left while lying on my back, or tilting it to the left while sitting up, or maybe twisting my upper body will do it? If not, well golly, when I have vertigo from a Meniere’s attack I can’t get relief, and I live through it, I’ll live through it. I won’t like it, but I’ll survive. There is a maneuver that can be done that will stop the vertigo when I have BPPV, it does involve turning me partially on my left side for a bit, but I think it can be adapted. I’ll just have to deal with it. That is the biggest thing isn’t it. I will deal with it.
About having vertigo while walking…or having a drop attack….Well I sure can’t control that! If it happens, hopefully I can fall well. Oh, I just giggled, I couldn’t help it. I really do try my best to fall well on a day to day basis, and I do a pretty good job of it, I’ve only broken one bone!! No concussions! (Honestly you have no idea what a feat that is!!) I don’t know how to fall well right after a hip replacement. However, I am going to make sure I know how before I leave the hospital. I’ll have the physical therapist show me the best way to move my leg if I fall. Maybe if I fall I can do that, if not….well hopefully my hip won’t come out of joint. If it does, we’ll deal with it. It isn’t ideal, but something I just can’t control, no matter how much of a plan I have. I can’t have someone with me 24 hours a day for over a month…or three….to walk with me, holding on to me, so that if I suddenly have vertigo of a drop attack they can catch me and help me. I’d still end up on the floor. OH…that’s another thing I’ll have to make sure I know how to do…how do I get up off the floor??? Guess that comes along with how to fall huh? I wonder how many people ask the PT….so, what is the best way to fall? hahaha “Well first, hold on to your walker for dear life!” *snicker*
I have to admit, I’m a little afraid about how to get in and out of the tub and taking a shower. Our bathroom is not ideal. It is not level. The tub is far from being level. I’ve never been able to stand in it to take a shower. My balance is simply not that good. I have only taken baths since we’ve been here. The only times I’ve taken a shower has been when I’ve gone to the pool….maybe I could just go to the pool a couple of days a week to shower. haha….yeah, that would work…considering I’m not getting aqua therapy any more, I’m sure they would let me just come in and use the pool plus it’s a about a 20 minute ride from my house….not the best idea, but it’s just a nice shower!!!! I’m curious if the shower seat is going to sit level. When you have a hip replacement you can’t bend your leg beyond 90 degrees, and you can’t put all your weight on that leg. so stepping in the tub is a no-no. I have to sit down and have a straight leg out and slide in the tub. They make a special seat for this, but our toilet is in the say. I have not figured out how to make this work yet, but I’m sure the physical therapist who comes over the day after I get home will be able to do it. I’m sure they have seen everything. Hey, I know, I’ll just sit on the seat with my legs out of the tub. Stuart can help wash the part that’s in the tub, and then he can wash my legs out side the tub. Yep that will work. hahaha. Hey, worst case scenario. We will work it out.
What if?….. isn’t so scary now is it??