Yes, after writing such a positive post about all the things I’ve been doing lately, I’ve spent the last two days in bed.
I have an ear infections, AGAIN! At least I’m pretty darn sure I do. The left ear, the one that I recently had surgery on, started draining more (it has been draining since surgery, this is normal, but it was clear and getting to be less and less. It drains out of my ear because I have a tube in that ear.) It started hurting, and the consistency of the stuff draining out looks like puss. I’ve been running a low-grade fever, mostly at night. And I feel very icky!! Ugh! So the world is very off-balance.
Please, don’t think ill of me, but I have about half a bottle of the Cipro Ear Drops my doc gave me last time, so I am treating myself. (I would normally never do this, but I’ve had so many ear infections, I pretty much know that’s what it is. I know…I’m recovering from surgery and should get it checked, if it’s not better Dr. Kaylie will see it on the 30th.) I just didn’t want to deal with making an appointment, and going to Duke, ect ….ect….just days before I have to go in for blood tests, an MRI, and visit Dr. Kaylie. Also, I didn’t want to suffer all weekend when I could get the medicine started.
Yesterday and today have been a bit rough. I feel like a human gyroscope. My head feels like my brain is lose and moving around. I was sitting on the toilet last night and the tile on the floor wouldn’t keep still. They kept going round and round in a clockwise spin. Ahhhh! I hate this, but at least I’m not throwing up for hours on end.
The weather has also changed, so that is a contributing factor and I’m fighting migraines. To top it all off, I’m just about to start my period. That always throws a wrench in things. Not a happy girl right now, but I know it will get better, so hope is always on the horizon.
Does anyone else have a really hard time going to sleep because of spinning? Even when I’m not feeling off, when I close my eyes and try to go to sleep I will start to feel like I’m moving. I jerk, and have to calm myself. Over an over…I’m actually afraid to try to sleep now. Many nights, I don’t get to sleep until absolute exhaustion overcomes me. Normally between 3am and 6am. Last night was a 6am day.
However, another obstacle to my sleep is pain. Headaches, muscle aches, hips…ect. It’s all worse now that the weather is colder and it’s raining. But I can’t live on pain pills. What to do, what to do? We know sleep aids just don’t work for me….I’d really like a good nights sleep, preferably on a regular basis. Exercise would probably help, but that’s just not possible right now.
Whew…a lot of whining today huh?
Don’t worry, this is just a little bump in the road, one step at a time, one day at a time….the sun is right over the horizon…I can feel it…and know I’ll be back to my normal positive self in no time.
**Please note, I have been reading all my friend’s blog entries, thanks to my new phone, I can read your blog entries anywhere. I really need to acknowledge a couple of posts here, but I haven’t been feeling up to par, and simply haven’t been on the computer as much. I’ll try to catch up on everything soon. But I may miss commenting, please don’t be offended. I’m still reading, and thinking of each and every one of you.