I saw this quote by Alice Walker, and I thought about how much I believed I had no power over anything in my life when the Meniere’s was bad.
I was so dependent on my husband for EVERYTHING! From paying all the bills, to helping me get to the bathroom. I had no choice for anything in my life…but that’s not exactly true is it? I could have completely given up and just packed it all in. I could have stopped trying to get out of bed. I could have stopped caring that I had to be taken care of and just given in, but I fought it every step of the way. Sometimes, it hurt my husband, but most of the time when I really needed him I let him help, but when I didn’t need help, I let him know in no uncertain terms. (My biggest regret is that I wasn’t easier on him.)
There were a few times when I thought it would easier just to give up and take a bottle of pills and stop being the burden that I felt like I was. Those are the times I gave up all my power. But then I’d realize that just because this disease had control of my body, it didn’t have control of my mind. So, I worked as hard as I could to find a way to live a better life with Meniere’s. I never thought that I would have the chance of getting rid of the vertigo, and living a mostly normal life again.