I woke up yesterday and my hearing was down. I thought, well, here we go again.
Today, has been a pretty bad day.
I got up, still can’t hear as well, felt off-balance; and as usual as soon as I woke up I was off to the bathroom, the diarrhea starting all ready. (I must say though that for the past couple of days things have been better on that front.) Not today.
I ate breakfast. Decided I’d look work on some photos on Photoshop. All of a sudden I had to RUN to the bathroom, and as you may have guessed, I didn’t quite make it. I’m so grossed out by this. What if I had been out in public?
Shortly after this I could feel a vertigo attack coming on. I quickly took some Valium, and Phenergan. I even decided to not wait and took a Phenergan suppository too. I tried to stay calm, but this
is driving me crazy. At least one attack per week, I just want it to end. I asked Stuart to call Dr. Kaylie’s office and tell him that I am going to kill myself if they don’t do something soon. Of course, Dr. Kaylie is out of the clinic this week. I realize that everyone deserves some time off, but why does everyone seem to think that the world stops this time of year? I am just so miserable, and all of my doctors are on vacation. *sigh* I’m sure they will take care of things as soon as they can as soon as they get back. Yes, I could see the doctor on call, but that really wouldn’t do any good. He wouldn’t be able to do a spinal tap, or set up surgery. So I wait…
After a little while the vomiting still hadn’t started, but I was still feeling very bad. We decided that I would get another suppository, and take another Valium. I usually don’t take them so close together (it was about an hour and a half since I took the first round.) But I’m glad I did. Things really started calming down. I even feel almost normal now. Thank goodness. I’m still a bit off-balance, but nothing I can’t handle.
I’m getting so tired of feeling sick and tired.
I can’t exercise. I’ve gained so much weight since this diarrhea started.
Look at these two pictures.
Can you see how much weight I’ve gained? Just look at my face. I know it’s a little hard to tell in the top picture, but it’s the best one I have of me right now. I must say, I’m kind of avoiding the camera. I hate to even look in the mirror. I gained the majority of this weight in 2 months, when the diarrhea first started. 30+ pounds.
I have enough to worry about without having to worry about this too. It’s just so depressing.
Don’t worry, I haven’t given up. I do believe something can be done, but I’m just tired of waiting for that something.