Today is about the same as yesterday.
Still can’t move my head without the world spinning. I tried to ease myself up…first slowly into a sitting position, waiting a long time each time I raised a little more. I thought I was at the point of sitting up, but boy was I wrong.
Dr. Kaylie said this kind of thing is possible, and to take more Valium. From the people I’ve talked to who have had this surgery, I think it’s a bit more than possible, I’m thinking it’s pretty common. The Valium helps a little, I can move my head a little bit, and don’t feel like I’m going to barf all the time…thank you to whoever invented Phenergan! I’m glad to hear this will end, if I thought I had to live like this all the time, I think they would have to lock me away because I would go crazy.
Stuart and I have are handling things pretty well. I’m less horrified by him having to help me with all my personal needs. (I must say, I never realized I peed as much as I do, I knew I drank a lot, but wow! You really notice it when you have to ask for help with it, you become acutely aware.) My husband has such a wonderful attitude, and is so generous and compassionate. It’s funny how we never seem to see the virtues other’s see in us. Stuart does not see that he is a very good person!
My ear is draining now. The swelling is less, I’m wondering if that’s why it wasn’t draining? Too swollen? The drainage is very bloody. And I have to change the cotton in my ear about every hour.
My biggest challenge now is sleeping. I have a very hard time falling asleep because when I close my eyes the world spins even more. Finally, when I’m so exhausted I will drift off. Waking is even harder on me. Every time I wake up I feel worse. The vertigo is worse, the pain is worse….
I sure hope this starts to level off soon. At least to the point where I can get to the bathroom.
Wouldn’t it be a great Christmas present to have this surgery work, and have my vertigo greatly reduced? (I hope I’ve recovered to a manageable state by then!)
I do so wish Stuart had some help. He keeps getting mad at himself because he can’t get more done. Taking care of me, looking for a job, cleaning the house, doing laundry, taking care of all meals, taking care of the pets…but he feels he’s not doing enough.
Yes, we need to get some things on eBay, the sooner the better, for Christmas. (he has some very expensive Lego sets that could make someone very happy, and us a little more solvent.) We also need to put the Honda up for sale. That would help our finances a lot. These things are important, but he can’t do it all. Yes, he’s a super man, but he’s not Superman. But you know, I can’t see Superman actually cooking and cleaning, or being a nurse maid.
I have been running a low grade fever, usually at night, but it’s not high enough to worry about. I’m pretty sick of TV, and I can only look at the computer for so long. Reading is alright, but again, I can’t do it for long. Words just start running together.
Like now….
Picnic with Ants 
Honey,
You KNOW that you would help your husband in half a second, think of it that way. He seems like a great guy and I am glad you have him. But remember, you would do the same for him, I’m sure. If you take the Valium right before bed would it help you go to sleep ? Hope things settle down in a day or two. I admire that you are still writing. Gentle, non-vertigo making hugs, Laurie
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Praying that you feel better soon!
Deb
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Stuart sounds like he has “mom-angst.” So much to do, so little time. But I agree with Laurie: you’d do it for him.
Well, it makes sense I suppose that all that inflammation would not bode well for vertigo-freeness. Hopefully things continue to improve a little each day. Just think, this is one day of suffering behind you. Passed. Over. Gone. Here’s hoping those days are numbered for a good, long time!
I saw a sign on a telephone pole today that said Vertigo Garage. It was an advertisement for a mechanic, I think. Really?! I’m guessing the guy has never had vertigo. Didn’t make me want to take MY car there. Lol!
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that’s hilarious Vertigo Garage. I felt the same way when I saw Vertigo comics. That word is really over used, and I feel like the guy in Princess Bride, “I don’t think that word means what you think it means.”
It doesn’t help that I can’t take anti-inflamatories. they eat up my stomach, except for Celebrex, and I’m deathly allergic to it! : )
the pain is worse tonight. I keep feeling like there is an ice pick being jammed in my ear. Hope that means it’s healing.
thanks for the encouragement. one day at a time. wendy
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I’m praying for you to get some relief. I dont have vertigo, but my grandpa did and it seemed just awful…and I have had chronic nausea, that is terrible and I too thank the inventer of Phenergan! I’m glad you have such a supportive hubby…I do too…when I was terribly ill, he had to do all my hygiene and even care for my ostomies, wounds, central lines, feedings…he was like my own personal nurse! I would do it for him of course, just as Laurie said! Hang in there … it will be a success! xoxo
T
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Makers sense that there was too much swelling for it to drain properly. I hope now that it is starting to drain that things will improve. Sounds like other people have had the surgery work well, just takes time.
Now that’s love! When you are taking care of everything for your loved one. And you’d do the same. He sounds like a wonderful man!
You’re in my thoughts and prayers. *gentle hugs* 🙂
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Wendy,
LOL. “You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means.” (Best. Movie. Ever. But the book is BETTER.)
Anyhoo, I had a low-grade fever for most of a year and it sucked. Sending love.
Do you have a twitter handle? I’m trying to add all the PFAM-ers and can’t find you. I am @aftergadget, if you are inclined to want to follow me.
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I’m not on Twitter very often, I do have a handle, but if you sent something that way, chances are I wouldn’t see it.
I’m 1artsychick.
Inconceivable!
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Wendy,
As I read this post – I flashed on the small blessing that Stuart doesn’t have a job and can be there with you as you go through this.
That doesn’t take away the worry about finances now or in the future but I wonder what you would have done if he weren’t able to be there – he absolutely sounds like the #1 Husband of the World – so he must be deserving of having you as his wife.
with love always,
j
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Judy, I too have thought of that. With his last job he still could have been here…work from home, set own hours… we are hoping he will get another job like that. Just in case…and we can move if we want and he won’t have to change jobs. He had a 3rd phone interview with a company like that today. Crossing all fingers and toes!
I really don’t know what I would have done. Really, I don’t.
He does deserve some type of award! Marrying him was by far the best decision I’ve ever made!
love to you, wendy
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I want the doctor to give you a pill so you could sleep until you feel better. But, maybe that’s not a good idea after all.
Keep up posted when you can.
mo
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